I don't have the time for a drink from the cup

So Cruz and I are finally starting, in little bits, to try to clean out some of the tons of crap we have. Cause we just don't have room for it all, or even really need it all.

If you are interested in any of the stuff that will trickle onto my LJ over the next few months, post a reply. First come, first served.

So we are starting with our VHS tapes - we are wanting to get rid of any that are dupes for DVD's we have.

Up for grabs currently are the following tapes:

Dark Shadows (VHS) #5 - 15 (that's 11 tapes) asking $20 for the set or best offer. Would prefer not to break it up.

Legend (VHS) asking $3

If you live near me at all we can arrange a hand off. I can take PayPal. I wanted to put this here cause eBay will likely be more trouble than it's worth for these.

So yesterday I went to Costco - had to pay our annual membershp fees and spend our nifty rebate (we're executive members).

So I went and grabbed the Dyson vacuum I've been coveting for YEARS (more on the amazing dyson later). I also found that they have various colors of sheep skins: white, off white, red and BLACK. So I got two black ones, cause they won't show the dirt when camping as bad. And I picked up two DVD's, V for Vendetta and Elizabeth I (the HBO mini series with Helen Mirren - which was really good).

And whilst trudging down the aisles I came upon the aisle where they have scales - and I stepped on the demo scale. Now if it is to be believed I was 302.4 yesterday - 2.5 pounds from my second weight loss goal of being under 300. Wow - 7 weeks post op and I've lost upwards of 45 pounds! It's still not real to me - I can barely see any difference, even in the before and after pics (we're taking new after pics next week). Hopefully if I can keep my water up, my sugar down, and get more exercise I can break 300 by my 8 week post op day. THAT would be cool.

So anyways - I get home, fiddle about a bit, and then assemble the Dyson (amazing self control I tell you). And all I vacuumed was the 4 feet of hallway between our kitchen and the office - and there is like a INCH of dirt in the collection bin on the thing. WOW... from just a few feet of carpet! Yeah - Dysons work. I may actually be able to do something about all the gunk and dust that's making Cruz miserable.

Yay.

I really didn't want to be quite that spendy so soon after getting my new laptop - but the Costco rebate helped a lot. And Cruz's allergies have been so bad the last few months I just couldn't NOT spend the money and get the precious!

So tomorrow I go in and they stick a teeny camera down my throat and look at the inside of my stomach. I have to fast from Midnight on - and I ate too damn much tonight. *ow* I don't do that very often, but MAN when I do.... *ow*

Tomorrow afternoon I will be home, and hoping to be able to go to 9Sisters Black Cycle. It's not that there is a lot to recover from - it's just that the doctors don't want me doing much while the various drugs they will give me (to make me not notice the camera) are working their way through my system.

I should have my surgery date before the end of the month. I am hoping to schedule it the first week of May so that I can do Month End for April, and then return to work first week of June, so that I can do Month End for May. That would make BayCon the last bit of time off I would have while recuperating. I know doing the Con whilst on such a restrictive diet will be interesting, but I just want this over with. And I am sorry - BayCon does not some first when my health is the issue. For once I am putting me first - yes you can all take a breath and mark it in your calendars, I am putting me first. Don't get used to it, it doesn't happen all that often. :P

In fact it may start happening more often - in fact it will HAVE to. WLS is major surgery - it changes major things in major ways. It will force me to pay more attention to ME - to keep from getting all the bad post-op problems.

If this surgery isn't the near to the top ultimate clue to start prioritizing and paying attention to how I part out my highly valuable time, I don't know what is. Things may have to change a lot in my life - I may have to let go of some thigns, walk away from some other, or just simplify and distance myself for my own good.

On a day to day basis I am so DONE. I think that is why I indentify with Anat so much (see the user icon on this post) the Phoenician Goddess of Sacrifice. I can only give so much of myself and not get anything back. There comes a time when making others happy is not sufficient result to feed the self and the soul.

On a brighter note maiandra will be our houseguest this Saturday night and Sunday morning she will be helping me to start listing stuff for sale on eBay. Perhaps I can not only get rid of some of the clutter and apron strings of the past, but even realize a bit of fundage from it too. There will be some bits of sewing stuff like a bunch of ancient patterns, some doll stuff, some Barbie stuff, some action figures (a good nubmer of Klingon ones most likely), perhaps some books, perhaps some holiday decorations (Xmas and Halloween for example), and anything else I can live without, place a value on, get a picture of, and describe sufficiently to list on eBay.

So that's me as of this evening. We'll see how I feel tomorrow after the Endoscopy and hopefully finding out the results of the tissue pathology from my D&C last Friday and the results of the abdominal ultrasound yesterday.